• you’re invited…

    What: FRESH DONUTS
    Where: The Virginia Mennonite Relief Sale
    Why: To raise money for Mennonite Central Committee
    When: Tomorrow!!!!!

    Two days of prep work down. Now for a nap. We’ll be back up at 11:30 pm (only 4 hours from now, sob), and then we’re off to the races. Come see us!

    PS. Bring cash and an appetite.
    PPS. If you don’t want to stand in a crazy-long line, hit up the donut stand BEFORE 9 o’clock.

    PPPS. By the time you see me tomorrow morningassuming you comeI will not look nearly as alert as I do in the above photo. I probably won’t even recognize you. I might not even know my own name.
    PPPPS. I have no idea if this post makes any sense. I just took one-third of an Aleve PM. I am dog-tired. Good night.

  • grape pie

    Our grapes went gangbusters this year.

    Once I got into the rhythm (after the first 12 pints of pallid jelly from underripe grapes, blech), I turned out batch after batch of jelly followed by a bunch of sweetened grape juice. (Confession: I’ve never really liked our grape juice—it always tasted sort of rotten-ish—but then this year I got lavish with the sugar. Plus, I quit diluting. Now we drink it straight-up over ice, all rich and sweet and deliciously grapey.)

    I thought I was pretty much done processing grapes, but then I went out to the arbor to photograph my daughter picking a bowlful of grapes, the morning sun filtering through the leaves, and I was shocked to see that the arbor was still loaded.

    And after all that juice and jelly making, too!

    Clearly, it was time for grape pie.

    So I sent one of the kids to the attic to hunt down my old-fashioned fruit strainer/musher, and then set about the business of making a grape puree: stem and wash the grapes, separate the skins from the eyeballs, cook down the eyeballs until they release their seeds, strain the sauce to remove the seeds, and then, finally, add the reserved skins back to the pale-green, applesauce-like sauce and then heat it through until I had a bubbling mass of dark purple, grapey deliciousness.

    For the pie, I stirred some sugar and cornstarch into three cups of the puree, simmered it until thick and bubbly, added the juice of half a lemon and a pat of butter, and then poured the whole mess into a pie shell.

    I topped the pie with a flurry of buttery crumbs and baked it in a blistering hot oven for thirty minutes. And then I had to fly out the door to rehearsal, leaving the pie to cool on the counter.

    When I got home that night, only a quarter of the pie was left. My husband reported that the kids had gone wild over the pie. Like, bonkers crazy. Loved it, rave reviews, the works, etc, etc.

    I ate my piece with vanilla ice cream—my husband had a piece, too (his third)—and then I had another piece.

    “I have to make more puree,” I said.

    “Yes,” my husband said.

    Because, see, grape pie is nothing short of revolutionary. So intense, so rich, so thoroughly grapey, grape pie is a pie like none other. In fact, I’d venture that until you’ve tasted a grape pie, you’ve never really lived.

    Those, my friends, are the over-the-top, paradigm-shifting thoughts that flit through one’s brain while eating a piece of grape pie. That’s how good it is. It’s no coincidence, I don’t think, that we frequently find ourselves dropping the ‘p’ in grape and replacing it with a ‘t.’ Great pie, we call it.

    And truly, it is.

    Good to my word, I spent the next day making grape puree, and now enough filling for eight pies is squirreled away in the freezer. What riches!

    And now my younger son has grape fever. He’s created a signature grape sauce by cooking down whole grapes, straining them, and then cooking the purple sauce with clear jell and sugar until it thickens slightly. We had some at lunch today, drizzled over vanilla ice cream for dessert, be still my beating heart. 

    And he baked a grape pie today, from his own puree (and some of mine, because he was short two of the three cups, ha!) and pastry, too. He’s so proud.

    We’ll eat it for supper tonight, with ice cream. And there will also be an apple pie, made from the scrappy apples from our tree, and fat juicy burgers.

    I’m excited.

    Grape Pie 
    Loosely based on a recipe from The Mennonite Community Cookbook.

    This pie is best eaten the same day it is made. To make the grape puree, follow my instructions as written in the body of the post. Or these instructions.

    The crumb topping is rather sparse, but it’s plenty. Trust me.

    ½ recipe of rich butter pastry
    3 cups grape puree (from four cups of whole grapes? Five? Not sure…)
    ½ cup sugar
    3 tablespoons cornstarch
    juice of half a lemon (1-2 tablespoons)
    1 tablespoon butter
    ½ of a recipe of crumb topping (recipe follows)

    Line a 9-inch pie pan with the pastry. Crimp the edges. Set in the fridge until ready to fill and bake.

    Measure the grape puree, sugar, and cornstarch into a saucepan and cook over medium-high heat, stirring occasionally, until bubbly and slightly thickened. Remove from the heat and stir in the lemon juice and butter.

    Pour the filling into the pie pastry. Top with crumbs. Bake on the bottom oven rack at 400 degrees for 20-30 minutes or until the pastry is deeply browned and the filling bubbles.

    Cool to room temperature. Serve with vanilla ice cream.

    Crumb Topping
    Adapted from The Mennonite Community Cookbook.

    ¾ cup flour
    ¼ cup each brown sugar and white sugar
    6 tablespoons butter

    Mix everything together with your fingers until sandy and crumbly. Use half the crumbs on one pie and freeze the rest for another pie.

    This same time, years previous: a day in the life, the quotidian (9.21.15), the quotidian (9.22.14), when the relatives came, vacationing till it hurts.

  • the unraveling

    I’m up to my ears, people. UP TO MY EARS, I tell you. I’m in another play, and this, I’m learning, is how plays begin for me…with me crawling into a hole and dying. Rehearsals start, and, BAM, I’m drowning. All the lines! All the lines! How will I ever memorize all the lines!

    For two weeks now, I’ve crept around the house in the pit of despair, the hundreds of lines like thick chains wrapped around my ankles and wrists. With every step, I rattle and groan. I lose sleep at night and nap during the day. I come home from rehearsal and crash on the couch. I have zero energy. The exhaustion is constant.

    The actual memorization gives me straight-up panic attacks: I memorize a line and then imagine standing on stage and forgetting it. WHY DO I DO THIS. I don’t know. I can’t seem to stop. My terror is unbridled. It threatens to consume me.

    “Bird by bird,” my husband says. “Give it time.”

    He’s right, of course. I know that.

    I just can’t feel it.

    Then there are the waves of crippling self-doubt. The other actors are trained! They’ve gone to school for this stuff! They teach it! They understand it! Acting is their world! And me? I still get confused between upstage and downstage. 

    I confide this to a friend and shebless her heartsnaps, “So what? Sometimes all the training gets in the way.”

    I don’t know if that applies to me, but, briefly, I feel better. I’ll take it.

    And then, right at the end of the second week of rehearsals, there’s a shift. I begin to get off-book. My terror lessens and my confidence rises. Maybe, just maybe, I can do this, I think. Also, Hey-hey! This might actually be fun!

    So to sum up, I’m in a play! It’s awesome! I get to tell jokes and ask lots of probing questions and chainsmoke! I want to feel pumped about it, like this:

    But mostly, I feel like this:

    Accepting ego strokes, bottles of wine, and votes of confidence.

    Love, always and forever,
    The Basket Case.

    PS. Shows are October 12-15 and 19-22. For tickets, go here.

    This same time, years previous: the big bad wolf and our children, baking with teachers, candid camera.